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ohwaffles93:

I will try to add as many people as I can, but message me for the new URL. And unless if I know you well enough, sorry I won’t be giving it to you.

I added all the people I follow last night but reblogging just in case.

I will try to add as many people as I can, but message me for the new URL. And unless if I don’t know you well enough, sorry I won’t be giving it to you

Just changed my URL again. Because of reasons and hopefully the person I think is constantly checking up on me is not following this one.

Okay so I ignored a person who started following me and then changed my URL, will they still be able to find me?

Our 1st anniversary is coming up rull fast and we can’t think of what to plan (we want to go on a vacay) but everything we think of is like a million dollars and ughhhh how do you guys go on some many vacations and make it look easy?!!!!!

We were thinking of going to a local winery town (Fredrickburg, Texas) and wanted to stay at a B&B but the cheapest one we found was around $400 for two nights. TWO NIGHTS. then on top of that we’d have to do all the stuff we wanted to. So that got shot out of the window.

I was thinking a cruise but by the end of that we’ll be out 2k. (or around there, but we’re still looking into that option).

I realize vacations aren’t cheap but geez. I’m willing to pay for something if I think it’s worth it but 2 nights at a b&b for $400 definitely did not seem worth it to me.

So we’re figuring that out. 

I DO know where we’re going for our “official” anniversary dinner. 

Uchi! It is rated the best restaurant right now in Houston and I have heard nothing but raves about it so why not. Plus it’s Japanese food so I know it’ll be amazing.

I have been overwhelmed all day but you guys are really the best. It’s so nice to know I have so much support and friendship from people I haven’t even met but we all know so much of each others lives!

I have seen this as inevitable but I decided to finally cut ties and just let go. I don’t deserve to be treated unfairly and it is just bringing me down while I’m trying to improve myself and bring more positivity into my life.

So thank YOU for being there for me! It means a lot!

I’m pretty hurt and upset y'all.
I’m on my phone so forgive my mistakes and formatting. This will probably be pretty lengthy.

For the better part of last year my “best friend” was completely absent from my life. I felt like the only time I saw her was when she was obligated (she was the MOH for my wedding) or when her bf now fiancé came into town.

Towards the end of the year I wouldn’t even try because she would just ignore every text or make an excuse. She moved to Colorado at the beginning of this year to be with her fiancé. I told her “hey there’s only a certain amount of days I can see you until you leave let me know when you wanna meet up!”
She of course ignored it. So for her going away thing (which was at a shitty smokey sports bar) I didn’t go.

Now I understood I can be brash and insensitive at times.

She is obviously close to her family (even though they threatened to disown her if she went to college so it may have been forced) and her sister had caught some type of cervical cancer early. I told her at one point if she needed anything to let me know.

For my wedding events she didn’t plan anything until either I addressed it needed to be planned or another bridesmaid did that I was complaining to. That was frustrating. My bridal shower was hosted my my MIL and basically I ran the entire show saying okay now we’re going to do this. Plus I had to pay for things and send out the invites with her name as the host. Hah.

At one point in our relationship she disappeared for a year! An entire year and she didn’t talk to anyone!!! I finally busted down her door and asked her what the eff her problem was and we became friends again (that was around 2011 we had already been friends for around 2 years by then).

I wrote her an email because the entire time she’s been moved away this year I haven’t gotten one single text besides one about a stupid wine bottle. Not even a “hey! Denver is great!” thing.

I told her that I wasn’t mad and I was sorry if I was impatient (which I can be very easily) insensitive or what have you. I told her she hurt my feelings and gave her basically all those examples from above and then some and how I really wanted to repair our relationship and I hope things can work out.

I even told her I felt like an ex boyfriend constantly fighting for our “relationship”.

I sent that on early Sunday and she hasn’t even replied. Not even to the two texts I sent asking her if she got it.

Ugh. I am like legit crying about this but how in the hell do you do this to a person?

She told me I would be her matron of honor and we would Skype all the time when she moved.

I just feel so hurt. Most of my posts about shitty friends the past couple years have been about her. It freaking sucks too cause my “true” best friends (the ones I’ve known since kindergarten and 7th grade) the ones who actually told her to get her shit together for my wedding stuff are in Spain and Louisiana working at jobs they love.

This is why I complain about not having friends so often. Because someone who calls me her best friend treats me like shit basically. And if any of y'all knew me personally you would know how HARD it is for me to break from my shell and become friends with another person. I literally freeze up any time I have to talk to some one new. I literally stutter and shit.

Anyways I’m not trying to get sympathy from not being able to make friends.

I am just really hurt and feel like I’m being taken advantages of. I really want to be her friend but I can’t if she doesn’t even make an effort! I’ve hung out with just her once in an entire year!!!!

Ugh you guys.
So there’s my “confession” I guess. This had been eating away at me for a couple years now and now it’s gotten to this.

I am just really sad.